Aman.. peace..the epitomy of all good things

Aman is another good friend for keep. probably if i have a big cupboard enough space to stuff this guy in i would. very inspiring guy, he sometimes can be a really pain in the ass with his truth (not entirely right bout the whole thing but seriously it can be ouch). i 've alway imagine the world would be not only a better place to live but heavenly if there's 100 of them like him. Aman cant be categorized as human being (at least thats whut i told him).. he should be an abstract, a concept or maybe a voice.. muse. like when u have him in ur cupboard.. and when u're down just open it (with enya song as background). no words needed and u'll be okay.

he might think i'm just another girl who need him to hang on to whenever i'm having emotional breakdown but the truth is, i got someone else for that. Aman taught me a lot about things in a very short period time. he got me thinking about spirituality seriously. thats whut i need. maybe he was right, i dont have that many friends whom i can turn to for this matter. i do actually. i tried to keep myself away from them.i actually cut them off from my list. it was like a blasphemy. okay i know thats evil. yikes!!!

if there is one thing i hate about him that would be the fact that he likes to analyze people... even me as his friend. i knew he did it on purpose but thats pretty much his nature i guess, a doctor. "u know what nurul, u have characters, so many ideas, brilliant yet psychotic and tragic", thats whut he said. i laughed so hard that i forgot i was sick at that moment he called all the way from UK. speak for urself Aman! he's even tragic than i am and probably i didnt want to say it out loud for the reason i might hurt his feeling. that would be the last thing i want to do now. hey, u'll never know when u're leaving this earth. hurting other people so deeply and not feeling sorry for it would not be in the list of things to do before i die. okay he did admit though we both two tragic people but i have a strong believe he's even worse than i am. heh!

he's coming back in june and if i'm still alive we would probably go backpacking together with sheena. he wanted to introduce me to his gf. i really look foward to it.. time will tell.