Pre wedding photoshoot

Been a while since I'm in here. I thought of updating with the wedding preparation but no. I hardly focus on preparation but thanks to my sister who also be getting married on the same day, she was the one who running the errands. We have two weeks to go before the wedding and I just had my pre wedding photoshoot. It was awesome. Waq and Saiful from Jangguttouch http://jangguttouch.com/blog/ did the whole outdoor shoot. The haze somehow give a lil touch, contributes to the awesomeness of the whole scene. Here goes...  

 FYI, all the props are mine. Yes, the big ol' radio, the camera, the hat etc..

At first, we thought of doing the shoot at Collesium as the theme revolve around 50-60 ish. Why would wanna waste RM500 for few hours. You just got to open your eyes and look around you..

Journey to the wedding: phase 1

January 1st 2012 marks the date. I am now engaged to my boyfriend of 3 years. Our relationship has been a great journey. Believe it or not, we have never been into a huge fight perhaps a fight itself. No we haven't and insyaallah shall not be. It is not because we want to skip all the dramas nor we're too lazy to fight with each other, we just couldn't find the reason and the subject matter to fight about. 3 years is a short period of time. We are still in the midst of adapting with each other's life. Who says taking time means you should completely forget the idea of being serious with someone. We both are taking time and to us, taking time is a process while being in the relationship itself. Love, like everything else, evolve. That is how our journey is.

Okay, enough about that that. We are currently busy with the wedding preparation. My sister and I both are going to get married on the same day. Double celebration that is. I have never thought planning a wedding could be very tiring. From choosing the design of the dress, the decoration of the bedroom, the decoration itself of the whole wedding itself, which we haven't done much yet, at the time of speaking, and so on. I haven't even complete my list of invitation and wedding is in July.

I'm slowly picking up on color coordination. I am very bad at decorating, colors, the combination of everything. Thanks to my sister, I have her doing all the things, cracking head on the decor, the mix and match and the design of our wedding dress.

Things that I can put a tick on my checklist for now:
1. bedroom furniture (it supposed to come after we paint the wall but errkk too bad its early!!)
2. curtains
3.wedding dress design and colors
4. makeup (we've paid the deposit hours ago)
5. knowing who would be the photographer..bla bla

So basically that's just it for now. We'll see how it goes in few weeks to come.

Some of the engagement's photos.

tepak sireh

                                               
                                                 

                                             ... with my fiance, J.

with my girls

Time

Time doesn't exist.  If we're measuring the movement of what common belief the earth r doing, it means we're measuring it with clock. Yes clock exist but not time.Time doesn't exist, only space. Take your time to ignore time. But do not waste it 

As to WHY..

Last week my boss told me she didn't like how I look in hijab. I didn't want to jump into conclusion because it probably not what she meant to say. Probably is. God knows and personally at this point, it's just one of those random comments. If we believe we have the right to do what we choose to do so as others. They have the right to go against it or not to like it. As long as we agree to disagree, there can be no further issue involve. Funny how cliche it is when disagreement happens, the next thing you know people come up with a lot of irrelevant issues from the view of moral, ethical, religious etc etc. At the end of the day, defending what we believe in leads to us being self-righteous, in one way or another. Who wants to look stupid in an argument,right?! I certainly don't. That's just the nature of human.

Out of curiousity, I confronted her and asked. She smiled. She said my face look smaller in hijab. Okay. Fair enough. Then she continued saying I may change in the way I view things, and she scared I may be oversensitive towards a lot of things after this. Now, that's not about being shallow. We are bombarded with a lot of issue these days and believe it or not fear, prejudice, stigma occur. But I couldn't help myself laughing. I was quite surprise that she never asked why I'm wearing it. Probably she understood why. 

Then again, WHY is always the question. WHY is also the question tag that should never be used in this matter. Everybody knows why. Probably everybody knows the big WHY. But why now? Truth is, I don't have the answer. I may be have, but the answer is not with me. 

Whether a person wants to be self-righteous, change their perceptions towards others or overly-sensitive towards issues in regards to different belief, moral etc is all up to the individual, doesn't matter whether they are in Hijab or without one. Someone who wants to live in a better version of herself or himself knows they change on their own term, for themselves, without having to justify it to anybody or bragging how great the course of life they have in the changes. They know and aware of their surroundings; respect and understand the relationship with one another better. They only become preacher to themselves but teach when they love others, learn when they love themselves. 

:) 

the smile...

When the girl with hundred pairs of shoes meet the boy with only a pair of it, they fell in love, instantly. No reason needed. Feelings need no reason. Sometimes the girl wonder (she wonders a lot and she worries a lot too) if good things will last as long as they are together. The boy knows she just scared. He said, "love, just like everything else, changes its form. It is an energy. It never dies but transform." The boy knows better after everything he had been through. He learned it at such a young age and learned it quick.

But what if she doesn't want the love to transform? Could that be the reason why some people find themselves battling with their feelings, simply because they do not allow love to change its form? What are the risk if we allow it? The boy smiled. Changes are not necessarily bad. It allows us human to evolve.

The girl decides to learn love ..little that he knows she begin her quest by trying to understand the gift called love. to learn is to know the Creator and love Him. She found peace. She didn't care about other's preach. To her, no other better medium to convey the message of the heart than to feel it itself. The girl learn about herself as a being, the perfect creation of the Creator. She begin to understand that despite the insecurity and inferiority she sometimes has, those feelings complete the cycle of emotion given to her. She loves the perfection within the imperfection. She found acceptence. She tells herself, no one has the right to take away the feelings that are naturally within self. Love the love. She found happiness...

She said to the boy, "love lies independently. It doesn't need two person to work its magic. but what makes it grow stronger is because u and i are in it. we are part of the energy." He smiled. Words may not be able to tell the feelings but the smile is everything the feeling all about.

I am LOVE

You don't have to look further than where you stand to find the reason why you love and are in love. You don't have to ask why you're being loved because not only reasons may take away the feelings but the feelings may fade away with reasons.

Love speaks its own language that needs no one to understand it. Feel... and you know you are what love really is.

On right and wrong

Any clown can be right, any idiot can succeed. The art of living intelligently is being wrong, failing and dealing with our mistakes in a way that allows us still like ourselves, even if we hate when things gone wrong.

Being wrong is not stupid. It is being aggressively wrong that is stupid. If we can be wrong gently, we are just wrong, not stupid. We can be aggressively right and very stupid.

If we are certain that we are right, question is.. why do we have to give the truth extra force by backing it up with aggression?

The truth can simply stand unsupported..