Time

Time doesn't exist.  If we're measuring the movement of what common belief the earth r doing, it means we're measuring it with clock. Yes clock exist but not time.Time doesn't exist, only space. Take your time to ignore time. But do not waste it 

As to WHY..

Last week my boss told me she didn't like how I look in hijab. I didn't want to jump into conclusion because it probably not what she meant to say. Probably is. God knows and personally at this point, it's just one of those random comments. If we believe we have the right to do what we choose to do so as others. They have the right to go against it or not to like it. As long as we agree to disagree, there can be no further issue involve. Funny how cliche it is when disagreement happens, the next thing you know people come up with a lot of irrelevant issues from the view of moral, ethical, religious etc etc. At the end of the day, defending what we believe in leads to us being self-righteous, in one way or another. Who wants to look stupid in an argument,right?! I certainly don't. That's just the nature of human.

Out of curiousity, I confronted her and asked. She smiled. She said my face look smaller in hijab. Okay. Fair enough. Then she continued saying I may change in the way I view things, and she scared I may be oversensitive towards a lot of things after this. Now, that's not about being shallow. We are bombarded with a lot of issue these days and believe it or not fear, prejudice, stigma occur. But I couldn't help myself laughing. I was quite surprise that she never asked why I'm wearing it. Probably she understood why. 

Then again, WHY is always the question. WHY is also the question tag that should never be used in this matter. Everybody knows why. Probably everybody knows the big WHY. But why now? Truth is, I don't have the answer. I may be have, but the answer is not with me. 

Whether a person wants to be self-righteous, change their perceptions towards others or overly-sensitive towards issues in regards to different belief, moral etc is all up to the individual, doesn't matter whether they are in Hijab or without one. Someone who wants to live in a better version of herself or himself knows they change on their own term, for themselves, without having to justify it to anybody or bragging how great the course of life they have in the changes. They know and aware of their surroundings; respect and understand the relationship with one another better. They only become preacher to themselves but teach when they love others, learn when they love themselves. 

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the smile...

When the girl with hundred pairs of shoes meet the boy with only a pair of it, they fell in love, instantly. No reason needed. Feelings need no reason. Sometimes the girl wonder (she wonders a lot and she worries a lot too) if good things will last as long as they are together. The boy knows she just scared. He said, "love, just like everything else, changes its form. It is an energy. It never dies but transform." The boy knows better after everything he had been through. He learned it at such a young age and learned it quick.

But what if she doesn't want the love to transform? Could that be the reason why some people find themselves battling with their feelings, simply because they do not allow love to change its form? What are the risk if we allow it? The boy smiled. Changes are not necessarily bad. It allows us human to evolve.

The girl decides to learn love ..little that he knows she begin her quest by trying to understand the gift called love. to learn is to know the Creator and love Him. She found peace. She didn't care about other's preach. To her, no other better medium to convey the message of the heart than to feel it itself. The girl learn about herself as a being, the perfect creation of the Creator. She begin to understand that despite the insecurity and inferiority she sometimes has, those feelings complete the cycle of emotion given to her. She loves the perfection within the imperfection. She found acceptence. She tells herself, no one has the right to take away the feelings that are naturally within self. Love the love. She found happiness...

She said to the boy, "love lies independently. It doesn't need two person to work its magic. but what makes it grow stronger is because u and i are in it. we are part of the energy." He smiled. Words may not be able to tell the feelings but the smile is everything the feeling all about.